Free, Free I'm Free at Last

After posting yesterday I received about 10 more emails and another phone call insisting on another meeting, and details that I didn't have. All the while I have a husband at home that I haven't spent time with in ages, and a kid that has snot from his nose to his chin. After saying "My kid's sick. I just can't do this today." and being told that it was a must I realized that I could no longer be a part of this. It's a Bible study. Not a job, not a negotiation, and definitely not a dictatorship. It's a Bible study. So I resigned my post. I was, and am, very sad to have to step down. I really thought this was going to be a blast. I had ideas for big things to draw in more women and families, but I have to put my family first. Rob completely agrees. He's been telling me to get out for a while now, and this weekend was the nail in the coffin so to speak. Rob pulled weekend duty so he was gone all night and slept most of the day, and the little that we did see each other this dominated the conversation. It's funny how I was letting a Bible study become the ruler of our house, and when the ruler of our house (Rob) finally said enough it was easy to let it go.
There is a book I'm reading called 'Having a Mary Spirit in a Martha World' that I believe helped me come to this decision. It's the reason for the title and verse accompanying this blog. I know it would be easy to say 'From this point forward this is how I will base my life', but it will be hard to do. And it will open up a foot hold for Satan to step in. So instead I will say "Lord guide me and help me to have a calm and peaceful spirit."

Jesus saves, but doing His work might kill ya.

Do you ever feel like a position that you've been 'led' to may be the end of you? I was asked last May to be on the executive board of our local women's Bible study. When I accepted the offer I was filled with excitement about working to provide an enriching and still entertaining program for the women that attend. Very soon after that I realized this was not going to be what I was originally expecting, or told. And here lately, I'm pretty sure it's going to be the death of me.
While I'm trying to stay calm and repeat the mantra, 'It's a Bible study. Just enjoy the Bible study.' I have a giant monkey on my back that is insisting on a million meetings a month and daily emails to keep everyone up to date. I have had to remind myself and fellow board members that this is not our job, we are volunteering, this should be enjoyable many times. In the mean time, it has been requested that I sit in on yet another meeting and discuss the same thing that has been discussed for the 8th time when what I really want to say is, 'That horse is dead, and now you're just being cruel.'
Unfortunately, the only other option I have is to step down, which I don't really want to do because I enjoy the position very much. So I guess I should go get ready for that meeting...

"It's a Bible study. Just enjoy the Bible study."