Whew.

This weekend was the greatest weekend I have ever had. Easily takes the cake! I was able to see my wonderful husband and as an added bonus the baby came with me. It was so much fun and so amazing to see him after six weeks and have a weekend of relaxation and rest. I am even more smitten with him now than I was when this all started nearly six years ago!
With those feelings of infatuation comes a massive wave of sadness at another goodbye. I handled it better than I thought I would, but that just means that I wasn't escorted out by airport security in a big kicking-and-screaming ball of tears! It was hard to watch him board the plane, even though I was very grateful to be let through security to spend every last second with him, but I think it was hardest when I landed back in Texas this afternoon. It made it feel real. I knew the day was coming that he would leave, but I hadn't prepared myself for the day I would! When the plane landed so did a weight on my chest. It's officially begun. The baby and I are here and he is there. For at least the next 196 days this is how our world will be. I have a dry erase board in the kitchen and every morning I erase the number and write in the new one. This started at 218, so I really feel like this is a cathartic part of my day!
With the help of my family, and the comfort of the Lord I know we can make it through this. I mean, we have already made it six weeks!