We're off to see the Wizard!

Maybe it's just me, but do you ever have a day where your anthem could only be sung best by a man made of straw? Well if I only had a brain I would stop sabotaging my own efforts at change both physically and spiritually. (Let's throw mentally and emotionally in there for good measure) I made up my mind a while back to start this transformation experiment, but apparently I wasn't really ready...
I still eat tons of junk! I didn't do a drop of exercise all last week, and relatively none the week before. I still lose sleep over worry and stress and have long, long narratives in my mind on how to handle things instead of discussing it with the Lord and leaving it there. And I've found that single parenting has brought out my use of four letter words much more than it did when Rob was home. In fact, I'm getting more and more concerned with it as the baby continues to mimic everything I say! That will be fun to explain at his CHURCH school!
And I know, you're sitting here reading these thinking "Hello stupid?! Stop doing them" but you forget, I don't have a brain. I know what I'm supposed to do. I know not to curse in front of my child even at the dog. Even if the dog deserved it. Or not to go ahead and polish off the bag of chips just because they are there. These are basic things!
But there's a blockage somewhere between my common sense and my actual, functioning brain. Blame it on sinuses and lousy weather changes, but my head is both literally (too literally) and figuratively congested. Something is not clicking and kicking me into action instead of just word. After some serious (non)brain racking, I think I have found the core of the problem. Me.
I have reverted to old ways, and old strength and it's definitely not enough. Instead I should be using Ancient ways and Ancient strength. I need to remember that the Lord did not make me to shoulder the weight of the world, but to revel in His glory and spend my time loving His grace! Though the problems I listed above have been created by me and I do need to bare responsibility, I do not have to go at it alone. The Lord wants to help us. He wants to make our yellow brick road straight, and trip to "Oz" a pleasant one.
I may not always have a brain, but I do always have a Father that is willing to help me think. And for that, I am eternally grateful!